I'm ready for revival!

     Jake pulled on the charger to the computer and it snapped right in half. Consequently, my blog became discontinued and my life feels a bit less fulfilled.  For now, I have a couple of minutes of which to write and since so many things have gone unsaid, I am not sure where I should begin. I however have been greatly inspired as of late.  I love these seasons where I feel the Spirit stirring.  Imminent change is on its way and it is a good kind because the Lord has willed it.  We are on our way to something new. 
      I recently rode on an airplane from Charlotte to San Francisco with Sonora and Jake, all by myself.  I survived by God's grace alone and all of the help that I received from others.  You know, I do believe that people are born into original sin, that is, they are born basically bad. There I said it.  However, before all of my liberal friends reach behind them in search of their soap box, let me explain.  There are such wonderful, good people in the world. I love people.  God has put in me an overwhelming love for others, and it is a both a burden and a blessing.  My fellow travelers on the airplane put a chaotic, scared mom above a peaceful plane flight, and I am so grateful.  People are good, and although many may disagree with me, I have come to learn that it is merely God in them. When I am at my best, I feel the Spirit at work in my life.  When I am feeling blue, I search in desperation for my missing piece, and when I find it, I can feel the smile spread across my face.  It's like I can't even help it.
     There is a friend that I have desperately been trying to minister to. I finally got to a place where I felt like breakthrough and revival were going to break out, and she backed out.  I think I was more upset then she was, and while I know that I love people and it is out of my love for people that I sometimes take these kinds of things personally, when I see my good deeds as merely God working through me I begin to think, "wait, that is His heart, not mine," and I'm so aware of His great love for us. As a lover of people, desperate to see people won to Christ, breaking chains and walking in total freedom, I can tell you that without God I would probably care less. With him, it is sometimes all I think about.  He loves his children so much.  You know how else I know that he loves us?  Because the Bible says that he is a Father, and while I am not a Father, I am a parent.  Do you know how much I love my children?  There are no words.  Do you know that I would do anything, absolutely anything in the world to see them claim their freedom in Christ and walk out in it (without interferring with their freewill...sigh...)?  I would lay down my life, for sure. God gave up His son that he loved so much so you could have that freedom.  When I start forgetting how God feels about me, I look at Jacob's little giggly face and I am made so aware of His affections. 
     We live in such a broken world.  I hate this world.  Have you ever hated this place?  Not the people, just the ugliness that is everywhere.  I do all of the time.  But I sound like a movie line here, but let me say, there is good too.  There is so much good and that is God coming to earth.  If you have God in you, share it. With a smile, or a hug, with the truth spoken in love, or interceeding for someone who hasn't even asked you for prayer. How about giving someone the awesome gift of freedom?  I have been struggling with this, that is why I am writing.  Not because I am super woman, but because I want to be :)  I just want to freely give because I have freely received, and I'm not sure where to start.  Anyone need prayer?  Anyone need me to explain what freedom in Christ means?  God can work through you even if you spit in His face everyday of your life, I hope that is humbling.  Knowing what He is doing makes it a bit more enjoyable.  He is so good, I can just feel Him stirring right now, leading people into restoration and I love it.  I am excited to be a part of it.  We all can be a part of it.  Invite him to live in you, to let His Spirit reside in you, and you can share in this joyful time. 

Heavenly Father, I pray for revival.  "You said, ask and I'll give the nations to you, that's the cry of my heart."  Bring revival, I pray that every heart would be broken before you, that a spirit without Your counterpart would be thirsty as the ground in a dry desert drought and that you would allow cool rain to fall and refresh.  Restore and refresh, God.  You are the best!  For those of us that know you, fill us again.  Let us step aside and let You work.  Let us be willing vessels. Thank you for the gift of marriage, and of course, children.  Thank you for loving my husband and my children more than I do.  Anything else?  Aaaaaaaamen.