Tonight I had the privilege of spending time with my husband, on a date, with no echoes of “MOMMY, DOWN!” and “GIMME SPRITE, I NEED IT!” We weren’t quite sure what to do with ourselves. We did enjoy our meal though, but not near as much as one another’s company. I think a question that frequents our days, weeks, and months is “Are you happy with me?” I ask it more than I care to admit, and Paul asked me today. It never catches me off guard, and Paul even less. I can’t give Paul the answer he’s looking for just because it’s the answer he’s looking for. I always take my time and think about it. It seems fair that way, and honest.
Yes, I am 100%, completely, and utterly thrilled to be his wife. Grateful. Content. Paul wasn’t exactly excited that I wanted to spend the first hour of our date night shopping for fabric, but he’s a good guy and allowed it (Thank you, Paul!), and then we ate dinner at a burrito bar restaurant. Paul asked what was on my mind, and that’s not a question he asks a lot because he knows mostly what I’ll go on and on about.
Yes, I am 100%, completely, and utterly thrilled to be his wife. Grateful. Content. Paul wasn’t exactly excited that I wanted to spend the first hour of our date night shopping for fabric, but he’s a good guy and allowed it (Thank you, Paul!), and then we ate dinner at a burrito bar restaurant. Paul asked what was on my mind, and that’s not a question he asks a lot because he knows mostly what I’ll go on and on about.
I HAVE GOT TO GET THAT BROWN WALL IN OUR ROOM PAINTED WHITE. I have to paint those shelves downstairs white. I have to get the kids room done, I’d like to have our yard sale sometimes soon. ......
“I know, but what place does the Lord have you in?”
That is my favorite thing to talk about with Paul. I’m not sure why it doesn’t come up more often. If you have a relationship with the Lord than you know that He never changes, but the seasons He moves his children through often do. At least this is the case with me. Paul and I are both prone to legalism in a sense, mostly because it seems to make sense. We say ‘God is love,” and by all means believe it, but I don’t think either of us have begun to understand what that love means. And we’re desperate. That’s the only way to put it. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a good place to be. Talking with Paul, my precious husband, about his hunger for the Holy Spirit in His life is pretty cool.
We seem caught in the middle all too often of living in God’s will, or living amongst the world and its expectations. We are starting to see that just because God calls one person to something, that doesn’t necessarily mean that He calls us to the same thing, just because we admire that person and their walk. It’s not always what God has called us to. Ok, finicky revelations here. More than anything, we are starting to understand the depth at which God loves us, and enjoys us. I think what gets us is that it’s not about how we love, it’s about how He loves. We really aren’t blown away yet, and not confused either. We are just eagerly seeking, and He’s responding. I think Paul especially is really putting himself out there to be met by God in a way like never before. This is indeed an exciting season for us.
As for me, the Lord has been speaking “PEACE” to me for weeks now. Why? For what? I don’t know, I guess because I NEED peace so badly in my life, and I thought that was probably all there was to it. Until the Lord told me that I was called to be a peacemaker. Not just to have peace in my life, but to impart it to others. I thought it was strange because I don’t feel like I emanate peace, in fact most of the time I’m chanting in rhythm with my footsteps up and down the hall in my house, “There is going to be peace in this house, There is going to be peace in this house, There is going to be peace in this house.” Can’t say my chanting brings about any real progress, but it reaffirms my goal. I just love peace, I have fallen in love with it and I need it. And my peace comes from the Lord.
Ever since I was a child I dreamed of the day that I would be married. It really is everything I thought it would be and more. Our children are precious and we are so grateful to be their parents! We love our family, our friends, and I just cannot imagine life outside the way it is now. And I love date night talks with my precious, wonderful husband!
We seem caught in the middle all too often of living in God’s will, or living amongst the world and its expectations. We are starting to see that just because God calls one person to something, that doesn’t necessarily mean that He calls us to the same thing, just because we admire that person and their walk. It’s not always what God has called us to. Ok, finicky revelations here. More than anything, we are starting to understand the depth at which God loves us, and enjoys us. I think what gets us is that it’s not about how we love, it’s about how He loves. We really aren’t blown away yet, and not confused either. We are just eagerly seeking, and He’s responding. I think Paul especially is really putting himself out there to be met by God in a way like never before. This is indeed an exciting season for us.
As for me, the Lord has been speaking “PEACE” to me for weeks now. Why? For what? I don’t know, I guess because I NEED peace so badly in my life, and I thought that was probably all there was to it. Until the Lord told me that I was called to be a peacemaker. Not just to have peace in my life, but to impart it to others. I thought it was strange because I don’t feel like I emanate peace, in fact most of the time I’m chanting in rhythm with my footsteps up and down the hall in my house, “There is going to be peace in this house, There is going to be peace in this house, There is going to be peace in this house.” Can’t say my chanting brings about any real progress, but it reaffirms my goal. I just love peace, I have fallen in love with it and I need it. And my peace comes from the Lord.
Ever since I was a child I dreamed of the day that I would be married. It really is everything I thought it would be and more. Our children are precious and we are so grateful to be their parents! We love our family, our friends, and I just cannot imagine life outside the way it is now. And I love date night talks with my precious, wonderful husband!
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